i dont want my last post in this part of this page to be about me wanting to off myself because i don't and my mind is just fucked sometimes and i feel like im going crazy. but i am okay. and everything is alright.

im gonna stop posting here like this but i will still keyword: try to keep this shit up by like having just one page you know. so i dont have to worry about the bullshit of trying to make anything look good or be consistent, it's just too much work. anyway yeah

suicidal as fuck but it's like chill you know. im not actually going to do it because im that much of a coward even though it's my thought 20 hours a day but it's fucking annoying at this point. i just hate where my life is at right now, really. having a corporate job always makes me want to blow my fucking brains out. plus this pandemic is getting to the point where it's just insufferuble but i also don't want to get out of it. thank god for tequila, aye? maybe not. i have work at 10 pm and i haven't slept since i woke up at 6 after having slept at like 1:30 last night. fml.

anyway, this probably my only post for march since i basically forgot about this shit. but whatever.